Saturday, October 18, 2008
All Things Justine
I think the best title for today's blog is "All Things Justine." I have been doing a lot of thinking this week. One thing that I have really thought of is the idea of being in control of your thoughts and feelings. I know it is hard to not feel excited and happy (or on the opposite end, sad and disappointed) about things in life. But it is up to us whether we dwell on things or not. For example, last weekend, I was feeling kind of crappy (physically) but I knew that it was something small. Then, there were certain things that bothered me, and it was in my head and I was thinking about it and thinking about it, not really knowing how it was affecting me. As a result, I was sick and missed 2 out of the 4 days I had to work. I even went to the doctor and she said she couldn't find anything when she examined me (no swollen lymph nodes, liquid in my lungs, no fever, etc.) She asked if I was depressed or had any stress. I laughed and was thinking, "wtf??" but after a while, I thought about it and thought..maybe its stress. Stress with life, stress with work, etc. It has such a negative affect on us. I realize that there are things that we have to really just "let go" and not hang on to. I know I was upset over small things and I really just let it get to me. I just have to not let it get to me. I know its much easier said then done. Negative stress not only affects your health, but also your relationships. I realize that when I am bummed, it affects how I interact with those that really matter to me the most--the people I live with--my love and the dobies, and my family. There are many things that I always find out about myself that I want to work on or improve. I feel like once I acknowledge it, I work towards setting goals to improve it. Another part of stress I have is that sometimes I compare my life with others and I know that I can't do that. My life is my life and although we don't have total control of everything, we do have say in it. My latest goals are to be nicer, less stressed, and show my appreciation towards the ones I love the most: Marcus, my babies, my family, and my closest friends. Thanks for reading!
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oh man i love this entry! I can TOTALLY relate to you! (though I do hate it when people say they understand you, and they dont lol). But anyway, I remember hearing something somewhere about like... 'if someone says something and it offends you, it is your fault because you took it in offense. if they meant to offend you, it's their fault.' or whatever. anyway it probably has nothing to do with what you blogged about, but it made me think of it! ...I do get the 'being in control of your feelings' part. i mean, true, we are the only ones in control of our feelings, but we can't help but feel, and care, and have emotions! we're only human :D but I like that you have set goals for being nicer and less stressed and showing appreciation-- those are great goals! ...and wouldn't it be great if those were everyone's? those goals are actually ones I should be setting. Great Blog! I give it 2 kudos! haha remember xanga!??? omg...
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